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Help me!
I'm drowning in these tears,
Surrounded by all these fears—
Help me escape from here!

If you've never heard that before, you needn't be surprised. I composed it on Tuesday driving to lit class, meant to post this last Wed., but you know how college finals can be.

My hormones don't like me. They go berserk for no good reasons (besides a genetic disease that means the system that regulates them is shot), so sometimes—if I'm maybe a little stressed, a little low on sleep, a little sick, having an allergic flare-up, or some combo of those four—I'm crying, wishing for my (mom's) cat Sparky, and praying, "God, help me??!!!!!"

I'm not depressed. I was a little dizzy when I got to lit class, but after sitting down for a few minutes with the rest of my classmates (one pair of whom was just as late as I was), I felt mostly fine. Some water and a snack helped with much of the rest of the way.

I'm furious with myself whenever this happens—when I start crying for no good reason, just because I'm a little sick and a little stressed and a little tired. I know I'm okay, but my body and emotions can't seem to agree with me.

Eh, well, at least one friend's commented that by the time I'm married, if I'm ever pregnant I'll be an old hat at handling hormonal roller coasters.

But clinging to Him really does help me in those times when I feel trapped in my emotions. He does help me.

-'Dee

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